A message from the dead






forgive me...



Died: 24/10/2008 at 2:46 am







To the surprise of many, this massage was written 24 hours after my death. No. I am not a phantom, nor am I a zombie. My body was burnt along with the hospital.





What am I?








No, I am not here now. I am gone, off to the unknown lands... my last will was to say good bye to my loved ones, but my time had ran out. This letter is the last thing anyone will ever see and read about me. Forgive me...







I have begun this life as a beautiful prince of sands, my life was luxurious, filled with love and friendships. But I wanted to be free, I wanted to feel independent and not rely on my family's fortune. From the day I left home, I had taken many decisions, many changes took place on my appearance. Till I became a sick plain grey stud, just another resident at the mental hospital. I have loved many mares and as a result I was blessed with 4 beautiful children. Two sons and two daughters... but I never gave them the opportunities and support they needed from a father. I have seen my errors too late, my time has ran out and my second chance was used up in a selfish manner...

I hope, that the ones who were close to me will remember me as the stud I used to be before I became this selfish and reckless stallion... please, accept this letter as not only a farewell but as an apology for all the hurt I have caused...

Do not feel sorry, do not cry for me. I am gone now, to leave you all finally in peace...


To Gwen:
Forgive me for being so selfish, to leave you alone with the two foals on your own. Forgive me for any heartbreak I could have caused you, I know you might feel angry and hate me for my cowerd behaviour. I now see what I have done and all I can offer is the sincere sorry of a creature with a lost honour. And with these words, I leave you once again. But this time, I shall be the one to suffer from my behaviour...please, forgive me

To Kota:
My son... I have not been there to see you grow into the stallion you are now. Your mother has raised you into great stud, you make me proud to be your father. I am sorry for all the pain I could have caused, I am sorry for leaving you and your sister alone for so long skipping the greatest moments of your childhood. If only I could get my time back... I am sorry Kota, please, don't forget that your father loves you. Even if I was not there for long, even if I am not there to help you through the hard times. Remember that I did care, even if I was not there...

To Sheena:
My beautiful daughter, you carry the same sickness as I. Be strong, it will soon be over. I will always be waiting here for you, remember that I, no matter how far I was, I never forgot you. Please, don't be scared, soon you'll be safe from danger. Soon...

To Drake:
I have been lucky to share my last moments by your side, I thought that I would join you... I was wrong. You had a second chance, and you used it well. I am very proud of you, Drake. You survived the hospital and the treatments, you survived the hardest parts of life... now look at you... such a marvelous work of art, you must be driving the mares crazy. But be careful not to fall into your father's path. If you find the true love of your life, don't let it run away. Keep her close and never let go of her no matter what... unlike me...

To Requiem:
You have grown into a beautiful mare, as beautiful as your mother... I told Drake that he would take care of you in my absence, however please keep an eye on your mother. I am worried about her, she has gone through so much pain bacause of my fault that she might need help. I hate to say good bye, I hate to leave you alone again... If only I could spend even if it were an afternoon with all of you... I would give anything for an afternoon with you all, but, I am left with nothing but a tortured soul. Good bye, Requiem. Remember that Dad loves you...

To Apocalypse:
Apocalypse... you are the one I owe the most, for my actions have been reflected as negative secondary effects. You hate me. I am now considered as your personal enemy. The first one you will ever curse at for your bad lucks. But just the thought that you will remember me, in a good or bad way is enough to leave me relieved. Whatever you do, never forget me. I know that you believe that I no longer love you, that all this was a plan to drown you in sorrow and pain. You are wrong. at the bottom of my heart I have always loved you. That day, the one I denied your love... I did not truly mean it. Under the effects of the treatments of those doctors my mind was confused, uncertain. I was lost and blinded by the fear of the loss of my life. Whatever I said under the effects of my treatments were no more than lies... these words are the truth. Apocalypse, I had to die to finally understand what eternal love is. At this very moment, the heart I thought burnt still beats silently in my chest just for you. I feel it tear apart as I write this letter, the thought that I will never see you again... I cannot explain what it is felt, some kind of agony perhaps...

I shall now leave you in peace, I wish I were strong enough to continue to write for you, I would write forever just to let you know how much I will miss you. I do not know where I will go, my only hope is that betwen my punishments I could have the oportunity, even if it were for a slight second, just to see you one more time. Good bye, my love

To the others I have encountered: Kalia, my brother Shetan, Ra... too much time has past for me to tell if you are dead or alive, if you have changed or stayed the same, if you live somewhere else... time has brought us apart. I hope that you manage to read this for I will never forget you, and I hope none of you forget me... I have been stupid and immature in the past, but I have changed now. Its too late. All I can say is that I am sorry and that I wish you all luck, wherever you are...

Finally, To Angie. For making my letter public up at my page and drawing what I look like now. Thank you for giving me a home and giving me a life... you could never imagined how much I owe you. thank you so much...



And with these words, I leave you all. Once more, forgive me. I have learnt the lesson too late and now I shall pay for all my errors and behaviour I had not corrected in time















Good bye...










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